Circle of Friends

Tuesday, January 28, 2003

 

TAHIMIK LAHAT

So bakit tahimik ang lahat??? Yvette, I huess unti-unti ka nang nag-adjust sa daily grind dyan sa aprika. Kala, busy ka siguro kay Tsog at Luna...ako naman, my hormones were working overtime last week. Tinanong ko sa sarili ko at hinalukay ko ang past experiences ng mga taong nakasalamuha ko (specifically the female gender) kung normal lang na makaramdam ka ng SELOS sa kahit kaunting level. And YES, I guess its part of the evolving and dynamic part of marriage. So maaga pa lang, I acknowledge the feeling para mawala na ang lahat. Nahihiya ako sa sarili ko pero OK lang. Na-realize ko, the more you get closer to your partner, the more you are vulnerable to this not-so-good fits of jealousy. Hindi naman matindi pero nabab-duyan ako sa asarili ko. May moments ako na I get jealous even with his past. so dali-dali kong inilatag ang naramdaman ko, and good thing, dahil mas naitaas naming mag-asawa yung level of communication namin. Ganun pala yon. Hindi pwedeng kimkimin all the time.

Yan ang dahilan kung bakit biglang na-i-dial ko ang telepono ni Kala ( na nag0iisang madaling matawagan for now kaya bawal mong iwala ang celpown mo loka!) at tanungin kung normal ang lahat! SALAMAT SA IYONG PANANAW. So, nagka-cuentuhan kaming mag-iina at mag-asawa after dinner about these things, about family and friends who have undergoine the same insecurities, funny stories, not s-funny sories about life and love, ----and I enjoyed it, dahil nagpalitan kami lahat ng haka-haka namin.

So to all those women who were ahead of me, kay MADUSH, at sa lahat ng kaibigan at di gaanong kaibigan, one way or the other, they paved the path for me...and it makes my life here easier. Truly, you learn from other people's mistakes and experiences, but far more from your own!! Thanks...

Jengger 12:09 PM